I would like to think of myself as rather intelligent. I've always had a sense of how people worked, and grasped challenging concepts pretty well. I remember over the years my mother would try to argue with me, and everything she said was either hypocritical or angry. She would get mad because I called her out, and she'd retort, "You know what, just become a psychiatrist already." I've thought about it, but I don't have a large threshold for ignorance.
Although it seems like I'm angry and opiniated 97% of the time, I have quite a bit of tolerance. I like to pride myself on my empathy. I worry about what others think of me, and I want them to enjoy my company. I try to be the person people come to, or can trust, because I don't have that all the time. And when I do, it's a huge relief. I was taught growing up the the most important thing is to be kind, and that you can't judge someone for their actions because there is always an underlying reason. I try to think about someone's home situation, or how much pain they've gone through, but I'm also forgetful and usually lash out. Others tell me I'm tall. I get that one a LOT. Random people will take the time out of their day to be annoying and inconsiderate and question me about my genetic code. No, you're right. I want to go throughout the day feeling self conscious about my giraffe height. Much love. I'm not sure what defines me yet. There are so many definitions for all the words in the English dictionary, and because we are all different and human, we are flawed and wrong and nothing is ever really correct. How should I know what defines me? I feel like I will spend most of my life trying to figure it out, just like everyone else. But I don't know if I want to be defined. I don't ever want to be put in a cage and told "You are this. This is all you can be and these are your limits". I have too much doubt in myself and too little time to do things for others to play that role. I want to be defined for what I've done, and what I write, and how I turn out. And I hope to turn out decent.
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Jatos
11/19/2015 10:09:57 am
You are defined by your supreme awesomeness. Duh.
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Pablo
11/20/2015 01:46:22 pm
Deep and pretty funny. Everyone enjoys your company, I know I do 😂
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Megan
11/20/2015 01:48:01 pm
I like giraffes. Have you seen their tongues?!
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Veronika
11/20/2015 01:52:53 pm
I love your writing technique, it's great!
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Veronika
11/20/2015 02:23:48 pm
I know I spelled *their wrong......don't judge me.
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Hillary
11/20/2015 01:57:42 pm
Omg u go grace!!! You used very big words and it was so smart for me I couldn't understand :--)):). You are goals tbh ok and don't let ppl discourage u be of your height. They're just jealous bc they can't be super models.
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Baker
11/20/2015 03:27:29 pm
Now I know what "tbh" means. I had to look it up. Thanks!
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Baker
11/20/2015 02:49:03 pm
I think you'd make a great psychiatrist. You're reflective and honest. I'm reading Love's Executioner and its perspective on the human condition is compelling. He (the author) doesn't have an endless threshold for ignorance, either.
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Citlalli
11/20/2015 10:10:01 pm
I know we don't talk at all but I just read everything and I'm sorry. I love you and your personality, the way you express yourself with words and your opinions. Like I said earlier we don't talk but I hope you get better and feel better. You're strong, powerful and beautiful and can accomplish anything and be anything. And you look good tall and being tall has its perks so 💛💛
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Grace
12/2/2015 02:02:52 pm
Thanks guys :-) you're all too kind.
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Cristian
12/4/2015 02:00:01 pm
Giraffes are awesome
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Eli
12/11/2015 10:49:29 am
I like how you try to see someone not for only the actions they take but also for the underlying reasons.
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Alyssa
1/6/2016 01:48:30 pm
I absolutely adore your extensive vocabulary. One of the many things that attribute to making your blog postings fun and interesting to read!
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